My Thursday Thirteen

I haven't had a whole lot of random thoughts but because of a few people that came back into my life from the past, I've had thoughts about, " what if"??? Basically, if I kept things a certain way in my life, what would it be like now.

1. What If I hadn't moved to Arizona when I was 12, then I might be the ring leader for 18th street gang and replacing my smudged eyebrows with a sharpie marker.
2. What If my best friend at the time didn't have a baby when she was 14 and scare the shit out of me, then it might've been me making that stupid decision.
3. What If I wasn't out enjoying my teenage years so much, then I might've enjoyed those academically correct classes I took.
4. What If I enjoyed the academically correct classes, then I still wouldn't be in college. Oh, wait that's just because I met the EX.
5. What If I loved my friend Carlos like he loves me, then I'd be touring the country with a professional PGA golfer.
6. What If I didn't have this spontaneous personality, then I'd have led a boring and uneventful life.
7. What If I could get over this small crush I have on someone named Thomas, then I might be mature enough to attempt another relationship.
8. What If I didn't have the ability to be independant with the support of my family and friends, then I'd be struggling to lean on someone and I'd be starving for attention.
9. What If I only settled for less, then I wouldn't have the confidence and desire to achieve and want more than just average.
10. What If I never applied for that Macy's credit card when I was 18, then I'd be driving a Mercedes, have 6 less credit cards and still living in AZ.
11. What If I never took my internship at ESI, then I would've lost the chance to know some of the closest friends I have.
12. What If I took a bite out of the apple sooner, then I would've never met the 7 dwarfs.
13. What If I never fell in love with Estevan, then I wouldn't know what love was and that it could create the one person that steals my breathe away.